There have been so many things that have happened since the last time I talked to you guys and I don't even know where to start. There was the funeral, lots of stuff with The Kid, my atrocious eating, losing weight even with that atrocious eating, TOPS drama, reflux redux, and a ton of other stuff. There was so much cluttering my brain that it paralyzed me and I wasn't able to write yesterday. I wanted to, I just couldn't make it happen. So here I go trying to get my groove back.
I took off work yesterday so that I could make a TOPS meeting because I hadn't been there in damn near a month and I have some sort of demented loyalty to the group. PT came in wiped out from dealing with crazy kids at work and he went right to sleep just as I was about to leave. At that point there were three options, and leaving a three year old basically home alone just wasn't in the realm of possibility. And because I hadn't been in so long and I'd taken off work, I figured that I would just go and take him with me. I packed him up a bag full of trains and tracks and we hit the road
The president retorted with, " Well were not supposed to have kids here at all." They went into some bullshit about the bylaws and I was like, " You know what, I'll leave." There was one member who said, " Jackie, just let her stay," but that went in one ear and out the other with nary a reply from her. I went over to the box in which I'd just placed my dues, plucked them out, and I just left. No dramatic, queeny, egress. I just left.
|REALLY old bats|
There are a few ladies that I will miss, but overall, I don't feel really bad about it. My schedule is really busy, I'm losing weight whether I go to TOPS or not, and to be honest, I never really felt like part of the group.
Well this is just about long enough, so I'll have to tell you about all of the other stuff tomorrow.