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Tuesday, November 27, 2012

I Think that Today is Going to be a good One!

Today has started out really, really well. Yesterday I woke up ready to commit to making a new start-eating more fresh fruit and veggies, cutting out processed stuff, even heading back to the gym. I don't know what possessed me to wake up like that, but when you get bit by the bug, its best not to question it. I bought a TON of heathly foods for the week and I've vowed that no cupcake will cross my lips this week. I thought of the cupcake part just now as I was typing and it seems like a good idea. This will probably be the week that the International, Top Chef, Best in Show, Free Cupcake Conference comes to Dallas. My insides just wilted a little.....Oh well....
Well this is a bit of good news! I woke up this morning to find that I was nominated for Unsung Hero in WEGO's Heath Activist Awards.I'm surprised that I wasn't nominated for "Most Creative Use of a Lady-Boy's Crotch in a Blog Post, but this is SO awesome. There are lots of different categories so make sure to nominate YOUR favorite health activists. Shhh. I don't want to tell too many secrets, but Chrissy of SoManyWays.Net and is one of my nominees. Can you guess which category? I'm far from finished and keep in mind she is only one of the people that I have nominated. You  might be one, too. 
The reset is going well too. I had a protein shake for breakfast and I just finished up a lunch of lean ground beef seasoned with garlic and my special homemade Ethiopian spice mixture. I topped it off with sauteed onions and it was super delicious, super easy, and super inexpensive. Tonight's dinner is already in the works. Clearly I am VERY excited about this new burst of motivation. I am going to ride this bitch til the wheels fall off.....or she runs out of gas.....or a get I a speeding ticket.....and get handcuffed.....and get put in the back of a squad car....or a paddywagon cause that sounds better. Anyway, which ever is first.

I hope that you are finding your own mojo. Maybe it just might find you.

Monday, November 26, 2012

This is me hitting the reset button on the week

I woke up ready for a fresh start and this is what I did. I had a LONG day so this is very short and not so sweet, but I'll be back tomorrow to blog a little more. I've got to make my "Reset Dinner" lol

What are you doing to make this a more healthful, productive week?

Saturday, November 17, 2012

What I look like 33 months after weight loss surgery

Sans Script Saturday

Here is a pic of myself that I took in the last few days.

Working it on out!

Monday, November 12, 2012

Defeated and feeling Defeeted

There is a lot of stuff on my mind today and I'm feeling a little run down.
I want to talk about my emotions and while I am open and expressive most days, today I'm having a really hard time trying to pin down into words to explain what I am feeling. Finding the balance today, the sweet spot, is as elusive as that delicious calorie free cupcake I've been seeking. I feel a little raw, on the verge of spilling over the top of the dike with a torrent of "frustration" and "despondency". I need to get it off of my chest, rip it off like taking off a uniform after a double shift. But then I"ll be naked and you'll see through me.

Laying it all out on the table, I do. I'm honest about everything I'm going through. There is a difference between laying "it" on the table and laying yourself on the table. Tell me if you think that you could bear that. Today I can only put pieces on the table.

I look at this mess in my house and I feel defeated.
I hear unaswered pleas echoing in my head and I feel defeated.
I see the deaf ears on which they fall and I feel defeated.
I miss my Mama.
I see these chipped up ass toe nails and I feel de"feet"ed.
On a day like today, it doesn't take much.

The specifics, the who/what/when/where/why/how, of my feelings really do not matter: Here is the truth- You are not promised a golden life just because you lose weight. People die, disappoint you, leave you, hurt you, embarrass you, dislike you, and you even do the same to yourself. Weight loss surgery isn't an inoculation against anything. The only thing it can offer you is the chance to have a better quality of life.

And even though I feel defeated today, I know that I am not.
I'm going to get up, get moving, get on with my day and enjoy the new quality of life that I have.

These fucking dishes will have to wait until I get back.

Monday, November 5, 2012

Which came first? Food or the food issue?

I was loved as a child.
There is no abuse or trauma in my history.
For the most part, I was well liked and had a happy childhood.

So how did I get to the point that my weight was so unmanageable that I needed weight loss surgery to find my authentic self again??

There is a prevailing thought in the weight loss surgery world that there has to be a root issue in the "Why" of obesity. Personally, I don't think that there necessarily is. Food in and of itself is the problem.

Let's say that you are absolutely in love with the Waning Woman Bakery's red velvet cupcakes. You swing by the bakery before work, on lunch, and even after work to get your fix. You don't know WHY you can't resist the siren song of buttery, sweet, goodness and after a while you start to feel bad about it. A couple of weeks later, you see Waning Woman plastered all of the local news because it's been discovered that she's putting crack into the cupcakes!! Lawd a mercy. How would you feel then? Outraged? You should because that is basically what has happened with all of the processed foods that we eat. Don't discount for a second that there are teams of food scientists terrorists whose sole job is to make the food that we eat as addictive as possible.
OOOHH! This crazy heffa been lacing the cupcakes! Y'all know imma be dressed just like that too.

Furthermore, humans are designed to seek food and store food as efficiently as possible. In the not so distant past, food was scarce. We spent most of our day just trying to acquire food. We had to hunt and gather and we were constantly burning calories just to acquire calories. In that environment it would make complete sense to eat and eat past the point of satiety.

The problem is, we no longer live in that environment. Our genes drive us to eat and seek food. We're really fucking good at it. Couple that with crackish frankenfoods, the artificially flavored, calorie dense stuff that is just a drive through away and you have a recipe for an obesity epidemic. This particular recipe doesn't need crack added.

I have been reading Powerful Hunger authored by Dagny Kight,
(a book you should pick up by the way) and in it she tackles some of these exact points. This woman really knows her stuff and she is maintaining an over 170 lb weight loss of proof of that effort. Her empowering, no-nonsense approach to obesity and overcoming obesity is really a breath of fresh air in an arena of myths and flat out lies. Her latest YouTube post, Release the Weight of Shame, really resonated with me. You've got to see it for yourself.

You're not fat because you're broken. When the zombie apocalypse comes, these fat storage, food seeking genes will be all the rage again. Be kind to yourself no matter what side of the fight you are on. Stay strong!

Waning Woman is sponsored by North Texas Bariatrics


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